I have never been more awed in life. I have never appreciated silence better. Looks like either I am inching my way towards sainthood or maybe I am falling in... Ahem... strange!
It was my first day off ever since the semester began. Idleness always brings with it the same twitches of nostalgia and moist- eyed repercussions. The not so comfortable but extremely sensitive journey to the past, left several (unanswered) questions lingering in my mind.
Childhood is the most relished phase of one’s life. Reminisce is as beautiful as the experience. Being the first baby of the family, I have been loved and pampered to the extent of becoming selfishly possessive (a hypothetical crime committed by my progenitors, the results of which I shall reap, eventually). However, the extra share of love, which the younger-to-me members (of family) were deprived, has made me one of most emotional persons of the family (an asset or a set back, situation decides).
Love they say can help you survive tempests. However, it helped me toddle, walk, ride my bicycle, play chess, play cricket and do a hundred other things. I have always wondered, what keeps two people together for life? Why is it that I tell my dad my failures and not someone else? How is it that the food grandma feeds me, is tastier than when I use a cutlery? Mom brushes my hair and I feel like the princess of the world, why? Who taught me to snuggle in HIS arms when I felt suffocated? The emotional bonding can help you leap across hurdles, cross-seas of depression and win a future of happiness.
However, it fails miserably to help you win THE RACE. The rat race, whole world seems to be a part. A race you cannot exit. A race you have to run mindlessly, against your whims and fancies. All of us are stuck up in a world of meaningless competition. In a futile attempt to build a future, we destroy our childhood, adolescence, adulthood and finally old age, as well. The discontentment of man with what he has and his vigilant greed to always step into somebody else’s shoe has dug deep crevasses of hatred and vengeance. The spirit of camaraderie has been replaced by a spirit of deterrence. The number of people you can stretch out for help under inevitable circumstances has mysteriously deteriorated.
I have always feared future. However, what I fear more is failure to have a future. Inability to keep up a steady position in the rat race. No matter how despicable the rat race, we have always lived with it and will continue to live with it. There will be no winner, but everybody participates. Unfortunately, it scores over relations, peace and happiness.
Ps: I got my results a day ago. Mind has gone topsy turvy. The above post might seem meaningless. Sorry, was just frustrated. Neither VTU nor has life lived up to my expectations. Everybody gets betrayed.
